I’m not a cool person. So I’m not going to forgive you who had never given me anything ever since I was a kid. I’m going to hate you who have taken away my childhood, because I used it to please you. I’m going to despise you for taking away all of our happiness and making us cry silently behind each other’s backs. I’m going to hate you because you ruined me, him, and her. And it’s your entire fault.

OK, fine, blame me, blame me for everything if you like. I’m sorry. My fault for not knowing everything. My fault for being “inconsiderate” and “not thinking of you” because I didn’t think about how busy you all are. There, I said it, I said I’m sorry. Happy now? Now, why don’t YOU try it next time, since I’m doing such a bad job in it. But you know what?

I have tutorials to do too. I, too, have projects to rush too. I too, have my own life to trouble about, just not something to be publicized about.

I gave up the chance to go to the CommunicAsia Event, a once in a lifetime experience to learn important things about my course.
And you all refused to even postpone some stupid projects for me.

I started planning the outing as soon as the holidays started last Friday, telling all of you to free that day, TWO weeks before the actual outing.
Yet none of you bothered to even care about where we’re going or what we’re going to do nor try to free yourself from your schedules.

Every single time you all said you all wanted to meet up, I, seeing that none of you wanna plan anything, pick the initiative to plan everything from scratch.
But all you all know how to do is complain this, complain that, not even bothering to help me, eg contact the others, or give suggestions on what to do.

When I ask online when in the world you all want the outing to be and when you’re free, I was trying so, so hard not to sound frustrated and tired of doing everything by myself as if I’m the only one who cares.
And yet you all flared at me, saying that I didn’t plan properly so that’s why we can’t go for the outing anymore.

GREAT. BLAME ME. LET ME BE THE FAULT OF EVERYTHING. FINE.

Like I said above!

COLDMARS@WP WILL NO LONGER BE A PERSONAL BLOG 😀
I will delete those things that I think if irrelevant…
And from maybe god knows when, I’ll start posting up translations of various artists.
Mostly about SHINee though xDDD
Though there will still be stuff about other celebrities such as 2AM,f(x),SNSD,FTI and etc.
There will also be spazz posts when I see performances and also dramas (I’m currently watching you’re beautiful 😀 )

I will be doing mostly cyworld posts, me2day or UFO replies…
And if you ask why I’m doing this…
It’s because I love translating stuff. But I really have not much dedication when it comes to managing forums T^T

OK, this is a summary, so coldmars@wp will become from a personal blog of py to become kinda like a kpop blog.
Kinda.
I still need a lot of guidance though… So could anyone gimme some suggestions as to how I should make it a better place?
Critism is fine too, just errr… Try to be nice to me if it’s my first offence! I’ll do my best to do well…

So please look forward yeah? ;DDDDDDD

I know you’re going to see this.
Which is exactly why I’m writing this for you to see.

You.
Do you realize what you’ve done?
You, you disgust me.
You make me feel sick in the stomach every time I think of what you’re doing.
It makes me feel even more sickening when I think I can do nothing about it.

If I’m not able to smile like I used to be, if I scowl at the sight of you…
Don’t blame me for changing.
Because you’re the one who’s responsible for this.
You’re the one who brought about the change in me.

Since this is my last present to you…
I’m going to do it well.
I’m going to show you, even if you’re not here, I’m still living so well.

因为你。

那原本与我格格不入的冷酷性格,现在与我融为一体。
那原本不属于我的冰冷眼神与表情,现在成了我常挂在脸上的表情。
原本让我那么反感的寂寞与悲伤现在却成了我最好的”朋友”,因为它总是对我”不离不弃”。
那原本让我那么厌倦的憎恨感,现在竟然又回到我身旁。

以前的笑容,快乐,幸福,满足,
现在统统消失不见。

这一切都怪你。
这全部全部的不开心,都是…

 

 

 

 

Happy birthday wishes to…

1) Sharon Kiew Mia Lan
I will send you loads of atomic bombs (which are useless against me) to bomb those who irritate the shit outta you ;D

2) Amberrrrrrrr ;DDDDD
Yes Sharon I’m dead jealous you have the same birthday as our Amber >.<;;;;; But be grateful ok! I remembered yours because of her. *runs* HAHAHAHA.

ok I shall continue being emo naos. OFF TO LJ TO CRY MY EYES OUT!

First, I really don’t care who might see this, because I really don’t mind at all.
Whether it’s people who love 2PM, hate 2PM, or those totally don’t know who they are at all.

Although not a fan of 2PM nor Park Jae Bum, This doesn’t deserve to happen on anyone, just because of a stupid mistake he made like what? 4 years ago?
Just look at how old he is only now, moreover 4 years ago?
Don’t tell me you’ve never thought of “Oh, I hate my parents, they don’t know me at all”
I’m SURE, at some point of your life, you’ve thought that before, right?
This is a sin even graver than what Jay Park had committed, because those are parents that raised you for life, when he only went to Korea for his training, which is barely even 6 years.
If you don’t know anything that poor guy has been through, what right do you have to judge him?
Even though he’s not born locally, but he’s still half Korean. If this is how you treat your fellow countrymen, I don’t know what to say anymore.
If this is how you treat people who barely knows about your own country’s culture, I’m not sure whether I’d still want to travel all over there when I grow older.

All of you had just crashed someone’s dream, and did it so easily, just because it’s not YOUR dreams.
You’re making such a big fuss about this matter, and overlooking what type of feelings he had 4 years ago and now.
You ought to feel guilty, those who forced Jay Park out of 2PM.

I shall not comment on this case ever again because it brings so much shame for me as a netizen, and as a fan of Korean culture and Korean-entertainment industry.

(And actually, I don’t care what type of shitty comments people are gonna give me on this post, as I’m 100% certain that there are many more who support what I say.)

Life’s not been fair lately, I’m sure close friends would know why…
But I’m still good. ^^
Not dying yet, not so soon… hehs.
Some bad stuff happened, some great incidents came about…
I’m not gonna talk about the bad stuff, since it does more bad than good anyways xp
So imma just update on the nice things that happened recently…

1. Got that wonderful smtown 09 summer album from arirang (yes I’m still grateful)
2. got back my english test (which i don’t remember having) today, and my summary scored a startling 22/25! ;DDD
3. got back my PPR today. ONLY FAILED AMATHS ;DDDDD ehhhhhhhhhh~ I passed Emath ok~
4. Got my wonderful 11 pts for L1R4 😀 HERE I COME POLYS!!!
5. Got 69.5 for english. ;DDD but only 0.5 marks to get an A2 siah! then L1R4 can get 10 =.=
6. got back chinese ‘O’ level results some time back. A1 WITH DISTINCTION FOR ORAL! ^^
7. Am very glad that my peeps in school like my cliquemates (Zihui, Yamluan, Elaine etc etc) are there for me when I need a good laugh or a good cry ^^
8. Got another option for the courses I wanna take when I reach poly. Law? Or tourism and hospitality? Or should I ditch languages course as a sub-course and take those 2 together? I’d die DDDD:

‘Kay that’s all the happy stuff for now.
Hoping for more to come ^^

But seriously, Law? Tourism and hospitality? Languages (specifically Korean)? Or should I take the 1st 2 and take the last one outside with my own money?
*bangs head in confusion*